Sometimes I feel bad for Chris because that is LITERALLY the only thing I talk to him about when he gets home at night. How the baby was that day. If he slept all day, kicked around for hours, etc. I am truly in love with him. Lots of people say having kids is like having your heart walk around outside of your body. But I love that he is still in my body. My heart is just... not in my chest cavity anymore. It's in my rapidly-expanding belly bowl.
Remember in the movie Juno, when she is walking in the clinic to get an abortion and the girl protesting outside says something along the lines of, "Do you know your baby has fingernails?!" And it just hits her- that it's an actual baby? I feel like I had that "hit" a couple days ago. That made him seem so much more real. Even though I have his constant kicks to remind me, sometimes it really truly is hard to believe that there is a baby inside of me. A little boy that I will soon be kissing and snuggling.
And maybe that's why the other day, when I felt him hiccuping for the very first time, my heart melted onto the ground.
In 3 months, I am going to have my very own little baby doll to hold and take care of. My heart feels full.
A lot of people would scoff at the idea of a 21 year old girl, married, bringing her first baby into the world. But for me- nothing could seem more perfect. I feel like I envisioned this part of my life for so long. And now it's here. It's easy to start feeling mundane and start counting down the days until this pregnancy is over, but really- I wish I could pause time and hold onto it for a just a little longer. I'm sure my life won't ever be this simple again once I have 3 or 4 little nuggets running around demanding every once of my attention.
I get in the bathtub every day just to watch him squirm. I'm not entirely sure if it's because he loves when I take a bath- or because he utterly hates it. I choose to think he loves it ;) But either way- he always puts on a show. And I adore it. Sometimes I sit in there for a solid hour and half until he finally falls back asleep and is done moving. I could watch that belly of mine all day... It's too bad I can't show you some of the footage I've captured on my little iPhone. Cause I'm in the bath, ya know? Usually (okay, always) naked. So Robins is the only one that can view those videos unfortunately..
I'm going to try and start doing some updates. I definitely don't promise that they'll be weekly, but hopefully a couple here and there:)
What is new this week?
Baby having the hiccups!!! Gahhh I love them so much. I just envision his little hiccuping-self in there and I die. I bet he is the cutest.
How big is the baby?
According to our baby app he is 14.5 inches long and a little over 2 pounds! That sounds really tall, and really skinny doesn't it.. I think that's normal though?
Uhh.. just so you know- I will never answer this question on the interweb. Because it's ridiculous. And I feel like it can make other readers (mainly other pregnant ladies) either feel really good about themselves or really terrible. Every person gains at their own pace, and their body knows what it needs to do for the baby. So whether you have gained 5 or 55 pounds- good for you! Truly. You're making a baby. (And no, I'm not saying this because I personally am a balloon. Luckily I am still below average on weight gain, but even if I weren't- it's a-okay!)
Mostly no, but I do have some! I definitely don't wear normal pants anymore because those are just down-right uncomfortable, but I don't really wear maternity pants either. Mostly just leggings and maxi skirts. Oh, and pregnancy garms? (For those of you who are LDS) The best thing ever invented. Lots of people told me not to invest in them, so I wasn't planning on it until my sister gave me some. And believe me- they would be worth EVERY LAST PENNY.
Way crappy. Not necessarily because I'm uncomfortable. It's more or less because my body just wants to be awake. 4:30 hits and I pretty much just toss and turn until 8:30. This is Chris' least favorite part of my pregnancy thus far..
Oh, and you can usually find me in my kitchen around 3:00 a.m. eating cereal.
Best Moment of the Week?
I did my glucose test this week. Why does everyone say, "Ohh.. it's not as bad as you think it'll be!" ?? It was bad. I felt sick as a dog afterward. But this is why it was the best moment of the week. Because for the past two weeks I've been worried sick that I am going to be that lady who gets the gestational diabetes.. So when my doctor gave me the results, saying I was well below normal, I was the happiest pregnant lady in the world. Thank freakin goodness. Because I wasn't about to give up my sugar cravings..
I know this is bad- but seriously- I crave so many sweets its ridiculous. I've tried to eliminate all candy from the house and just depend on my fruit snacks to get me through. But Chris finally made it through tax season on April 15th, so I decided to celebrate with homemade chocolate covered cinnamon bears. (If you love these as much as I do, NEVER eat store-bought again. Make them homemade. With Dove chocolate. OMG)
So much movement!! Sometimes it freaks me out when he does a really big roll. But I mostly just love it. And I'm also really glad that his kicks aren't uncomfortable yet.
What I miss?
Bending over. I don't know why but I oddly REALLY despise not being able to completely bend in half the way I used to. Especially during my yoga class. When all these ladies are just folding right over, and I'm like reaching for my toes so hard that I'm about to blow an artery...
Anything Making you Queasy or Sick?
Nahh man. My pregnancy is so breezy these days. Other than that glucose test. That definitely made me sick.
Well, I sure hope not since I'm only 27 weeks along! Although, technically they say he could live if he were born. But actually- at the gym this past week, I started having some contractions. And that freaked me right out. But all went back to normal :)
I am happy to report that I am not a grouchy pregnant woman. I feared that for myself. But luckily, this babe has made me a happy camper over all. I guess sometimes I get irritated a little quicker than I normally would though.
What I'm Looking forward to?
I just bought some of that Aveeno Oatmeal Baby Bath and when I took off the lid to smell it, I got overly excited to bathe my little nugg in it. I've been daydreaming about it ever since.
And now just a couple random pictures...
- I swore I'd never buy any newborn sizes. But when I saw this, I had to. Because I'm obsessed with making him look just like Robins. And Robins would wear that shirt no question. In fact, it'd probably be one of his favorites.
- BEFORE my glucose test. I didn't even know what I was in for..
- The previously mentioned chocolate covered cinna-bears. Swoon.
- This little lady left me for the summer :( I love her and her parents! We'll miss you Carson and Simone!! And Garrett!